"You just need to have a little more faith, not everyone you love is going to leave you"
It’s true. Things might seem rocky now, but they will get better. Someday, somehow you just gotta keep on living. Keep on breathing. No matter how hard life is now remember, you’re young. This is only the beginning.
“Yeah, the future is scary, you know the world can be threatening. But you should know sometimes when things seem the most desperate, people find you. Help is out there, and you are not alone.”—Haley James Scott (One Tree Hill)
Who feels so alone.. All. The. Time. I’m surrounded by so many friends and people who love me but I feel like I never have anyone to talk to about anything, don’t get me wrong i have plenty of friends to let shit out to. I just don’t get when the fuck things got so complicated in this world. I miss being young and having no care in the world. Now I just stress about every fucking thing. It sucks, feeling like you have no one. Feeling lost, it just all really sucks.
used to be a place where I can let out all of my deepest feelings and emotions. Don’t get me wrong it still is but literally everytime someone from collins hill follows me or columbia I die a little inside not that I mind you guys following, cause I don’t. I just gotta keep my rep hahHa but no in all seriousness I don’t want to seem weak. When someone from school follows me it means they’re one step closer to seeing the real me. You know beneath the smile, and bitching, and I dont give a fuck attitude. You read my words and you get to understand the reason why i am the way I am. It’s still sugar coated on here though, can’t let my guard down that easily but maybe one of these days I can say everything and tell every single one of my secrets. Who knows, stuff that my closest friends don’t even know about. I just reallllllly wanna let everything out. Maybe one day because it’s not good for a person to keep everything in.
“But I still mean every word I said to you. He would try to take away my pain and he just might make me smile but the whole time I’m wishing he was you instead. I’m holding my breath, won’t see you again. Something keeps me holding on to nothing”—
You know who I’m talkin’ about? That girl who used to be real bubbly and loud. That girl who no one could get enough of because she moved in her own way - shined with subliminal bliss. And then that one guy came along and she fell hard, real hard. Now she’s quiet, sarcastic, and rarely gives a fuck. If there’s one thing that changed about her, it’s probably the look in her eyes: shattered, broken, destroyed.
it’s just like… yeah, I don’t care. Life is better that way anyway. Just fuck people and fuck problems and fuck issues fuck everything that makes you upset or angry or sad. Fuck everyone and everything, you just have to live for your fucking self. Because depending on people for happiness will get you no where. Just a shitload of heartache.
(I bolded the shit I post the most.) Quotes. One tree hill. Cupcakes. Gossip girl. Cute couples. Pretty food. Random rants. Sad memories. Bitching. Love. Happiness. Spilling my heart out. 30 day challenges. The Kardashians. Taylor Swift. Cute quotes on cute back grounds. Photography. Curse words. Jersey Shore. Hot men. Tattoos. Partying. Weed. Funny stories. Alcohol. Romantic stories. A bajillion reblogs. Things from your confessions. Things from if you really knew me. Avril Lavigne. Pretty girls. Perfume. How I’m feeling that day. Victoria Secret. Cute cars. Memories. Dream Catchers. Harry potter. Mean girls quotes and pictures. Soldiers. Beyonce. Cigarettes. Mary Kate and Ashley. Starbucks. Deep thoughts. Amazing music. Juno. Katy perry. Juicy Couture. Kittens. Pretty bongs. Lil wayne. Puppies. Boys. Cute clothes. Marilyn Monroe. Song lyrics. Tigers. Selena Gomez. The notebook. Jewelry. A walk to remember. Cute bowls. Funny pie charts. Makeup. The hills. Beaches. Bestfriends. Snow. Middle fingers. Candy. Piercings. Inspirational sayings. Demi Lovato. Pretty little liars. Uplifting pictures. And plenty plenty more. If you don’t like it byebyebyee and hit that mother fucking unfollow button on your way out? K? K. Cause it’s my tumblr and I post what the fuck I want<33
I know I’m way behind but there’s no way in hell I’m about to play catch up so I’ll just start where I left off..
My last night in detail, well yesterday I didn’t do shit cause obviously it was a school night, so I’ll talk about Saturday. Well, it was my sister Kassmin’s last day in Georgia so me, Chantelle and Tanisha decided to go ice skating but we found out it closed at 11… and we got there at 10:15ish and it’s in Atlanta so you would have to walk a good at least 5 mintues, and we decided that it was pointless to pay like 10$ just to skate for like 30 minutes so we went back to my tanisha.. my oldest sisters house and my other sister Chantelle had her friend bring a bottle.. Soo he got there we got slizzzy and went to ihop at like 4 am. K?
has clearly lost his mother fucking mind. So, on Saturday my sister from Boston flew down to do some stupid shit for him. My other sister Tanisha.. they’re all half sisters.. Me and Chantelle my full sister… decided to go to my “dads” house. So, everything went fine.. and they were arguing blah fucking blah and he wanted to do some dumb ass prayer as if he believes in god or some shit because someone who believe in god doesnt abuse fucking women. Anyway, so my sister Tanisha poked my sister kassmins hand… and kassmin squeezed her hand then my sister Tanisha started to laugh. Tell me why this psycho ass nigga wanna knock EVERYTHING off the table, there’s broken glass EVERYWHERE and it’s just a gigantic mess and goes up and tries to attack my sister Tanisha. At this point all the boys who were there.. like 2 of my half brothers on my “dads” side were trying to hold him back and he CHOKED her, yeah legit put his hands around her neck and squeezed, so then the boys like pulled him back and my “dads” girlfriend or whatever she is, was like “WHAT ARE YOU DOING, THAT’S YOUR DAUGHTER” this point everyone was crying and tanisha was all no no fuck this I’m leaving and tried to run away tell me why this idiot was like running towards her.. was like legit trying to attack her. He tries to push her in a room which doesn’t fly with me because last time he pushed his girlfriend in the room my brothers busted in to find her beat up, like literally black eyes bleeding and shit so she had to go to the hospital(that was a few years ago) the bitch stayed with him.. idk why anyways, so he was running around trying to get her like CHASING everyone. At this point I was like so scared like I really thought he was gonna try to get to me. So he kept chasing her around the house and me chantelle and kassmin and the boys were running after him making sure he didnt touch her. Point of this is, he’s a fucking psycho mother fucker and I hate him. The fucking end.